yes hello i didn't die i'm still alive

It's been up and down but more up than down, and one fairly hardcore down that at least didn't have lasting effects. Yulemas was good, blastmas was also good and i still have all eyes and fingers, vacation's been much needed and uh, exam was missed because i had 3 hardcore panic attacks in a row (or one big-ass panic attack with varying intensity) over two hours due to medication side effects. I've since been weaning off of that medication because i don't want to deal with that shit. :V

On the plus side, as much as it sucked at the time (which was A WHOLE FUCKING LOT, make no mistake), it kinda made my normal anxiety levels seem lesser by comparison due to the extreme level of anxiety and fear i was feeling during those panic attacks. I don't often get to say that i'm feeling an extreme level of anything, but that qualified. I feel like i've actually been doing better since i recovered and started getting off the meds, because although far from normal recommended procedure, it was a learning experience. I have had a few other episodes of it since then, but none quite to that level, and i had to figure out how to deal with it fast. Although by no means comfortable, i can now function while experiencing moderate levels of anxiety.


so much journey with so little much to show :V

Also been in kind of a creative slump, but recently might be getting back into it. I do have a few doodles!