how exactly am i supposed to get through all of this, and what am i supposed to do if or when everything falls apart?
i am still dealing with the aftermath of burnout i experienced last year++ some awful awful stuff that happened start of this year.
almost everything in my life is just a carefully built front that i've been forced to create, designed to meet certain peoples expectations, filling their demands, and i dont even want to be doing these things and dont have the power to keep doing them in general and i am not allowed to quit.
same people who demand these things from me, have insane amount of control over my life and if i fail them i will be dead.
i am expected to keep this up forever from all i can see, with no way out

thank god i'm beautiful