I need to make more money. Was really stressed about that a few months back got way better now, but yeah used to consume my thoughts and still does sometimes, every free moment I had to think was how I need to make more money/work harder/find a new vehicle to make money.

Never thought I'd be like that either, money only has value because we give it value, its not even real yet to participate in society and do the stuff I want to do I need it.


And in this endless pursuit of numbers on a screen, am I staying true to my soul purpose. What am I really meant to do, how am I meant to do it? Analysis paralysis, too many options, too much freedom, the dizzying anxiety of this freedom. Indecision is the worst decision a lot of the time.


I feel as if I'm running out of time but also trusting I'm exactly where I should be? I know deep down, somehow it will all work out if I stay positive, such is the nature of life you get what you focus on.