Thank you for the support. I really don't feel well right now, my body's complaining like mad right now, my stomach is hurting and i've been close to throwing up a few times. it's about 3 hours until my mum arrives and i really feel like i should just call her and ask her to turn back.

Edit, 1137 local time: Here i am, packing up the last few pieces of my life, soon it's just the computer left. At this point i just feel empty. I flinsh everytime i hear a car, wondering if it's my mum. I don't want this anymore. I just want happiness again.