Actually i have a few similar problems: you can make top-tier stuff,however,easily can see more problems than quality.
Probably this happens to all the editors,maybe because we are the one who makes and modify the stuff,watching it continuously and repeating,while the ones who watch the final project only look the video 3 or less times.
I've got away from editing a few times because of it too.

Anyway: "people kept saying this was good but idk i wasnt feeling it" is pretty creative.
specially with that uncommon "scare" on beggining(yes,i got a jumpscare even not being anything really scary there,just the sound glitch lol). And its pretty good.