As i understand my position within this chaos, i knew it is already too late. A girl that i used to know well intertwined her hand with other man with the brightest smile i used to think its mine. I am just a “loser” combine with “childhood friend” attribute. I am not a main character after all, i am just a “side character” on this story, even better i am just a mere “trash”.

A man who win her heart sometimes stare at me judgemental which corner me mentally. My childhood friend keep assuring me it just my figment of imagination, which i knew pretty well it isn’t. The best trait of “side character” is how laughable sensitive they are.

Without me realizing it, i don’t know when it happened, our relation got deteriorate over time, until i hear a bell chimed as i sit on her wedding day. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t sincere request from her with a tears worried with the fact that we became more and more of a stranger. What a naive person i am, to sacrifice my own feeling just to see her smile on her happy days even though i am not part of that happy occasion. I could feel that my soul died a bit and tears rolled down as they close their vow and officially announced as husband and wife.

I always imagine, would it be different if i notice it sooner? I shake my head drowning my scream on my lonely bed in dark quiet small apartment room.