Wow, what a read. I knew that things in Venezuela weren't good based on what I read from news outlets and from your personal stories, but I was at least comforted that you were in a position of power/wealth that allowed you to avoid the danger that the majority of citizens faced. Now I know that isn't the case anymore, I pray for you. I'm sorry to hear about what you and your countrymen are enduring, and I hope that the revolution ends in favor of the people.

Stay strong, take care of your family and friends, and never give up hope. You will always be in my heart, ale!

Here I am thinking Sweden is a political shithole. I can't even imagine going through that kind of stuff. I hope you're okay and that you stay okay for this whole situation. I don't really know you but nobody deserves to live through that shit. Best of luck to you man.

guys thank u so much for all the kind words and wishes, it really means a lot.

omfg sweden lmao

as to update on how things are going, my city is kind of back to normal, there's running water and electricity is constant now, been so for 2 days, though got trust issues as you can never really believe services are actually going to work, so don't know when it will go down again, still, some food did rot, some days were of real hardship, but now it feels the way it's felt for years, kind of bleak, but livable, for me at least, many people aren't in the same lucky situation.

However, some parts of the country are way worse now, maracaibo has had no electricity or water for over a week, some power did come back, and a few minutes later the power transformers fckin exploded so they're back to darkness, it's a constant pressure as I have close family there and they're hungry and rn we're arranging some way for them to come over, heck, my grandma's there. Over 550 businesses were looted... in 24 hours. Don't know who's counting but I'm pretty sure we got a record vro.

Water is the main concern, this is Mad Max stuff, in Caracas people are taking desperate measures to get any sort of water supply, to the point where they're actually taking some off the Guaire River, it crosses Caracas, and it's used for sewage and the disposal of other kinds of undesirable trash, also an extra morgue for when the actual morgue is full, which happens a lot. Even the military are drinking and bathing in this river, as there's still no running water over there, gross shit that leads to infection.

U.S. Ambassadors and any Americans still living in the country were prompted to leave under direct orders from Pompeo, after Maduro directly threatened civilians with the use of irregular armed forced, though by this point this is just customary bureaucratic stuff, so nothing really shocking for us.

Things are tame and warm right now, though, we're honestly just waiting, as these last few days have built up for a foreign military intervention, Article 187, clause 11, I think I mentioned that already. Can't wait for it to happen and can't wait for those cunts to be killed lmao*t riggerhappy**bloodymes s*

Though before anyone says "why don't the people take up arms and fight!?" there's heavy gun control here in Venezuela unless you're part of the irregular armed forces that I mentioned earlier, which are pretty much mercenaries, so people that aren't under a government payroll get no access to weapons, plus protests and demonstrations work under a government that listens to their people, here we have a dictatorship that's unwilling to let go and every action we take falls on deaf ears.

Also for a meme, they're saying that Americans were sabotaging the electricity with flying machines that zapped invisible lasers to the towers and then the power went down, they're saying that after they originally said it was a cyberattack and even imprisoned some vzlan instagram influencer and tried to convince everyone that he was the one behind the attacks, pretty surreal shit; it feels like satire tbh.

Hello, thank you for this thread. It is probably the best thread in the entire toribash forums.
I will bookmark it and read all of your long posts later.

You could easily make a blog about this or something

ily2 gl0w


u r a frien d thank u

I don't think I'll be posting a lot of serious stuff for now, as really things are kind of cold atm where I live, if I lived somewhere else in the country I'm sure I wouldn't even be posting as I'd have no power and cops would've probably gotten into my house to check I didn't loot anything and then proceed to steal my shit like they're doing in Maracaibo, but once it starts catching fire again I'm sure I'll have a ton to tell

i kno friend i miss u tanan
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next week's the big week

eternak

hows the big week going

It's fucking happening again. Yesterday it was localized, 7 or 8 hours, can't even count them anymore, now, 5am nationwide blackout, everyone I can contact is under the same predicamnet, god, honestly I'm starting to lose it, and the worst thing is that I don't know if it'd be better if I lost it, at least I'd be numb to the anger I guess.

Even the opposition politicians are fucking bleak and useless, today, one claiming that he 'didn't want american intervention because it'll take away my protagonism' caused backlash on twitter, though this is the kind of people we're dealing with: sociopathic narcissists from both sides. I honestly don't know what the fuck I should think by now.

You know what I should think? I think I should try to leave as soon as possible. This country is simply not worth it anymore and it hasn't been in years. Lately I've slowly but surely been bringing closure to things and to myself, and I hope soon I can finally leave for good, and not look back, only having the leftover subconscious pavlovian effects affecting all venezuelans for years, panic whenever we hear a motorcycle's humming, unconscious hoarding because we think it's going to go scarce, an idea of lack of control for the future because we don't know if tomorrow everything goes even further to shit.

But I guess it makes me stronger.

I guess it makes all of us stronger, and my generation has been extremely resilient and fearless, you know, just yesterday, I was talking to a very good friend of mine in Chile, he was telling me about how lonely he felt, being surrounded by people that didn't get him and didn't share his humor and didn't really have anything in common with but routine; and you know what's the worst to me about that? I felt it too. Living in my own country with my own people, I felt that same loneliness. I felt the same purposeless void that he felt. I don't know what to blame, is it postmodern cynicism? is it the lack of wholesome sincerity in the whole globalized world of today? or does it go further, deep inside of us? is it my country, or is it my zeitgeist?

I honestly don't know, I just need to vent. It's 6:13AM and we had internet for about 4hrs, from 1AM to 5AM, rest of it was through expensive phone data that I can fortunately afford, I don't know for how long though, the economy is dead, and you're pretty much incredibly out of luck if your trade is not food or water. My family's business is mainly management of artists, imagine that lmao, who the fuck is going to call in for a performance at such dire times? our savings are depleting, and even though we've thankfully somewhat successfully ventured into other business models, it hits hard.

When I heard my brother say that the internet was back, I woke up, 4AM, having slept 4 hours; I was excited to have proper internet and not phone data, my schedule didn't matter, it didn't matter that I hadn't slept nearly enough. I feel so fucking disgusted. I feel like such an instinctive animal, I feel like I'm succumbing to the crumbs we're given.

I hate it.


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I wrote that before going to sleep, still, pretty fucking sad, I just let go honestly, I'm really shocked at how much I can suppress from my conscious state, and I just notice all that's happened once I read it.

Thanks for all the love, guys, politically speaking, nothing is going on, we're at a stalemate, Russia brought some troops in, and that means the worse, honestly, because if it's not an unlikely Trojan Horse, then it means that if the US invades and even dares touch Russian forces, there'll be retaliation, and of course Venezuela is not worth that retaliation, uh, everyone's just guessing that the deals have been made and the hands have been shaken, fucked up shit. We're waiting for a Florida state of exception to go into place so we can legally move, it's being discussed, though, still need to suffer for some months in here.


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ur situation is fucked noone deserves 2 have 2 live through that my dude
i hope everything goes as smooth as it can and u and ur family can get 2 florida safely

at least when you get here you'll have a really cool backstory