hmm is it always great at that age ? at 13-14 I was going completely rebellious after my father died and I wasn't scared of my mother's punishments. I used to stay out late at night with friends, started breaking out of school everyday with friends, started smoking but then stopped, went to a party with my gay friend but social anxiety ruined it lol so never did it again, also 2 gay friends tried to rape me and from that day gays are a bit un-trusted to me. I just had a lot of freedom that I didn't have before my father died I think that's why 2009 was a great year for me. Then we moved to Syria and after a year the war started and I left all my friends and friends went extinct and I hated everyone here and social anxiety hit me like crazy and everything is miserable.