i started off enamoured by the physics / the game itself but as time has passed it has largely become about the community and the friends ive made in it that keeps me around in the limited capacity i am

though i wouldnt say im a completely different person here its important to understand people are always variable and a large contributor to that is their environment. something something youll never see the same person twice even in one person

its honestly shocking how parallel small communities like this are to each other, with the same sort of drama playing out or people behaving in extremely similar manners

maybe idk im not diagnosed with anything

ive smoked weed a handful of times but its not for me and now i only really drink socially. i dont think its really changed anything about my perception of reality or my experience with toribash


i guess i use the forums more than i play the game now but overall in game is probably way higher

its kind of just neutral for me at least, i had fun sinking thousands of hours on the game and community over the past decade and dont regret it one bit

there has been some incredibly insightful and well thought out responses to this thread, thank you everyone for participating

1) What is it about the toribash community that you enjoy?

The fact you can run into players from 2016 even now, and the ever progressing skill ceiling.

2) Do you believe that the persona you associate with your toribash account to be separate from your identity in the physical world that we occupy?


Nah not really, I'm still egotistical and arrogant unless I'm with my kids.


3) Does this website and community have something that other online communities doesn't have? If yes, elaborate


There's something about this game that makes it more personal, maybe the relationships you can build?


4) Do you believe you suffer from any kind of mental health problems?


Not that I'm aware of.


5) Have you ever used drugs? if yes, how has this impacted your perception of reality and how you experience "toribash"


I've only done weed, and it hasn't really done anything for me.


6) How often is your forum usage compared with time spent in game?


I'm on forums daily maybe every other hour, can't play the game cuz no PC


7) Do you perceive the way you use toribash (both as a videogame and as an online forum) to be conductive to good mental health and living your best life?



When I was able to play yes, I have a lot of memories with this game and made tons of friends through it, most of them I don't talk to anymore but know you aren't forgotten. (R.I.P)

one might argue that doing things that impact the world positively is the same as being happy and doing things that help you grow, because the karmic weight of ignoring our responsibilities as humans and members of society is one thing that would subconsciously lead to unhappiness and cultivate an environment that isn't conducive to growth

I really enjoy the dynamic range of different people that you can meet on toribash and how everyone has their own unique character traits and different quirks, in a lot of other communities it seems to cultivate a kind of "sub culture" but toribash is a bit different in that it has a few sort of "sub cultures" within it but each individual is different to the next. Also theres the fact that the actual game engine is so unique and is such a timeless and fun game

I feel like as I grow older and more mature I am behaving more like my most authentic self everywhere in my life and toribash isn't excluded from that. in the past I've vented a lot of my negative toxic traits within the community and not really been my "best self" here but this is one thing I'm actively working on improving each day

Yeah, just the general vibe of how "communal" it feels and like others have mentioned, the ability to form really life changing relationships here with interesting people is very cool.

This is a hard question for me to answer because I've never had a formal diagnosis and I don't want to devalue the experience of anybody who does, but I believe that I have ADHD and autism and have managed to "slip the net" of the care system because my parents are both neurodivergent too and during their time in life there wasn't as much of an understanding as there is now about these things. I don't think that they hold me back much though, actually I think that although I face a lot of challenges these things fuel me to do the things I do and be the person I am

I have used plenty of drugs, the ones I will list here are ones that have had the most impact on my life and perception of reality. I started out smoking weed when I was really young (around 14-15, this is a terrible idea and any young people reading this should head my warning and avoid using ANY psychoactive substance unless advised otherwise and prescribed by a trusted medical professional because the impacts it could potentially have on brain development are NOT worth the high/potential benefits) I got into learning about psychedelics around the same time and have spent the last 10 years of my life expanding my knowledge and research on psychedelics and their benefits to human life and different psychological issues. In recent months I have been consuming a lot of ketamine and have been getting a lot of really great insight to my own consciousness and developing a greater understanding of my life. In terms of toribash, I would say that certain substances help me to create replays in ways that I otherwise wouldn't have been able to, for example, whilst taking psychedelics I'm able to "connect" with the tori on a different level and overcome roadblocks that were previously limiting my playstyle.

It varies massively but I think I spend more time currently looking at the forum

In the past the way I used toribash was very unhealthy; I used the game itself to avoid serious responsibilities and challenges in my life that needed to be faced head on and I used the forum and other community aspects (discord etc) to ventilate my toxic ego traits and push out negativity onto others. At this point in my life, I am healing a lot of my toxic traits and core wounds and really appreciating toribash in a new light.

1) What is it about the toribash community that you enjoy?
Joshing around with my friends!
2) Do you believe that the persona you associate with your toribash account to be separate from your identity in the physical world that we occupy?
no im just as unserious irl
3) Does this website and community have something that other online communities doesn't have? If yes, elaborate
yeah some of the worst people i have ever seen
4) Do you believe you suffer from any kind of mental health problems?
according to my psych i'm fine
5) Have you ever used drugs? if yes, how has this impacted your perception of reality and how you experience "toribash"
no
6) How often is your forum usage compared with time spent in game?
theres a game?
7) Do you perceive the way you use toribash (both as a videogame and as an online forum) to be conductive to good mental health and living your best life?
idk man i just come here to shitpost and laugh at people

Your achivement?

Please elaborate, enlight me

duelling is cool but how can we monetize replay making I am very hungry and need to fund several expensive habits also

(1)What is it about the toribash community that you enjoy?

friends I'vemade along the way and being the "old guy" in a young man's game.

2) Do you believe that the persona you associate with your toribash account to be separate from your identity in the physical world that we occupy?

No, we're the same. I don't have the energy for anything else.

3) Does this website and community have something that other online communities doesn't have? If yes, elaborate

My childhood.

4) Do you believe you suffer from any kind of mental health problems?

No.

5) Have you ever used drugs? if yes, how has this impacted your perception of reality and how you experience "toribash"

Yes, it really didn't effect me very much just improved focus and relaxation.

6) How often is your forum usage compared with time spent in game?

If I have a working pc it's probably a 15 to 1 ratio of game time to forum usage at this point.

7) Do you perceive the way you use toribash (both as a videogame and as an online forum) to be conductive to good mental health and living your best life?

Yes. It can always be different things to different people though. When i was young it was an escape, now it's more of a way for me to keep in touch with old friends and help others.